I am now officially and completely divorced! All of the loose ends have been tied up, and I am now free to live my life. Well, I’m practically broke (liquid assets anyway), but at least I can move on.
I went down to the local library for a change of scenery today. The temperature got up to 0°F, so I figured that was warm enough to go out. While working on a client project, I found myself in one of my usual states on anxiety about trying to get the thing done as quickly as I could so I could rush off to do something else, because there must be something else I should be doing, right?
That’s when I caught myself. I don’t have to rush. I don’t have to worry about trying to do more, be more, and provide more. I can slow down. I can finally start to relax and not live in a continuous state of worry.
It’s an amazing feeling, the realization that I’m free to start living my life, the way I want, where, and with whom I want. I’m grateful for the opportunity to take another stab at life, a bit wiser this time.
Woo hoo, it’s over!